grrr...and other funny noises

why is it so damn hard for people to be considerate or think of people other than themselves?

Anyway...

School is hard but its going... My friends are awesome. Family is driving me crazy.. I dont think I wanna go home anymore, but I dont always have a choice.

I need money. Im working two jobs, babysitting and still dont have money to do what I want or need. Plus my family is no help at all, so finances are getting stressful. Cant wait til I graduate and have a good job so I can not worry as much anymore.

But things are going as well as could be expected. Nothing to interesting, nothing horrible is happening, and we are all still here to live another day. Thats all I got today.

Just remember to smile.. its all that gets me through the day sometimes.

peace

All is well on the home front again.. for now. I found a way to do things on my own. The parents are still fighting, but at least now I dont need to ask them for help.... which feels nice. All of the schooling is paid for, my books, parking pass, and extra supplies will be paid for for the entire year

YAY! and now the countdown is:

6 days until departure for Valpo!!!!!! I leave on the 6th day.. I am soo ready..

BUT I will miss all of my friends dearly.. so so much.. You shoudl all come up and visit me and we will have a hella good time!

Currently Listening About-Face By The Working Title Turbulance see related

hehehe...bored at work

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

Currently Listening Mad Season By matchbox twenty The Burn see related

Done.. Completely done with this place.

So I am cmpletely done and tired of this place and these people. I hate cincinnati and most of the people here. I just want to be home. My home. Where my heart, my smile and my friends are. Not this place that consists of yelling and tears. I HATE it. and I dont wanna use that word, but it is exactly how I feel. I have nothing and almost no one here for me anymore. Here is a quick run down of exactly how I feel right now. Sorry.  I need to vent.

Dear Mom, Dad, and Danny

 Basically you all trashed me today and basically said I was the root of your problems and a financial burden because I chose to go to a good school where I felt I would get a good education instead of a tech school. Im sorry, and if I offend someone Im sorry.... good nursing skills dont come from $4000.00 a year. That is my equivalent of getting your driver's liscense in a cacker jack box. I went where I felt I could get the best edu I could, and I am fucking happy there.. Really truly happy for a change. I have friends there. I have family there, and my amazing boyfriend. DO you know how longit has been since I have been this happy? good cuz neither do I. and now It feels like tyou just dont want me to be happy anymore. SO fuck you. No more asking you to help with school. I will work more ( more than the job I already have) get my own loans, and pay for everything myself. No more asking to help with school because I am too much of a fucking burden to them. Well thank you very much for making me feel like a complete piece of shit mom and dad, cuz you did a damn good job. Im sorry that you cant afford to help me now because you insisted on buying a fucking brand new gas guzzling ugly ass excuse for an SUV that adds 500+ a month in car payments, plus and extra 200 in insurance. Sorry that Im the big problem. Sorry that your 19 year old son still lives at home, doesnt have a job so he mooches money of of you for gas, insurance, cell phone, his massive credit cards for all the shit he buys his g/f and is now "trying" to go to school.. he applied and has yet to make another move 2 months later. So Im am sorry for being such a big, inconsiderate mooch and asking you to help me get the education you "always wanted for me" or so you always said when I was growing up. So I ont be a burden anymore. No more help, and Im moving out. Next summer, I will be gone, and I wont be around for much. Sorry that i have to stop letting you think you  are a perfect family. I have to be the rotten egg in th family, but maybe I guess thats just who I am. I am the bad one. Things are my fault apparently. So now they wont be. I am so sorry for all the trouble I cause and for making your life so fucking hard. Good bye and Im done.

~Your daughter.

Done venting now. Gonna go pack more of my shit. Mayeb cry a little. Or sleep. But gotta do something.

I leave to go back home Friday August 18 at 10:00 AM

Count Down: 14 more days after today until I am home.

update..finally....

Soooooo.... I figured it was about time to update since it's been like forever.

This internship dealy at CCHMC has been wonderful. I dont think I could be getting any better of an experience. All the people I work with are great... they havw shown me soooooooo many new things and taught me all kinds of new things too. I work on A3S,...it is a diabetes and endrocrinology unit. I do PCA work.. getting heights weights, vitals and do urine dips for either ketones or pregnancy tests, as well as run the DCA2000 to check hemoglobinA1c and Microalbumin ( ask and I will explain.. dont fell like it right now.) I also get ot shadow on other units to see what others aspects of nursing are. So far I have been to Psychology, Hemotology/Oncology,  OR, and today I am with transport... they run the ambulances adn helocopter work. Hopefully I will get to go on a run with them today. Next week I have ICU, ED (emergency dept.) and Physical  Therapy lined up. and then a day on the inpatient side of my unit  ( my side is outpatient so it kinda runs like a doctors office.)  So over all.. I absolutly love it. Yea it sucks having to get up at 5 every morning, but it is definitly worth it. I'll update more later.

So my parents and brother have been out of town for two weeks.. It has been nice cuz we convinced Andy's mom to let himstay with me while they are gone so I wouldnt have to be home all alone for two weeks. Its nice having him there.. playing house has never been more fun.

Other than that not too much has been going on. I miss everyone lots...cant wait for school to start. sad to say I know, but I miss it, plus I cant wait to be back in Valpo for good. I mis it and other than my job and a few friends, I really have no reason to be here at all.

OK... gotta go.. looks like I have a run! YAY!!!!!!!